17th of July...

17th of July....a normal day to work in the afternoon... a normal disappointment as i had when i got back my hp after work. but... at least... something special on that day...

FInally, should i say u 'sorted it out'? or ' u are also tired of it'? that u decided to break up...

honestly speaking... although i am kinda 'well prepared' for this ending, but... my mind was totally blank when i saw the line on msn. is quite ironic~ i suggested to break up 2 weeks ago, and you yourself was the one who asked for the patch up. and now, you said that it is better to 'move back'...

hahaha.... what you mean by 'moving everything back'? do you really think we can still be friend as we used to in Taylors ? maybe i will feel better if you dun say that 'moving back is better'.... though i agree that there is no point to drag the relationship further, but please.... not moving back...

From 22nd of Sept,2008, to 17th of july... we have been together for 298 days...

I duno whether did i fit the qualification of being a good girlfriend... but i already did my best... sorry for everythg....

It has been a long time.... that i hadn't release my tears...

you know what.... i am not sad for the break up.... but u know... it really hurts me for the disappointment you gave me again and again.... though i know you wont realize...

it is just hurt...

I Thought i will be alright... i Thought i will not cry or feel hurt of you.... but in fact.... when i was releasing my tears.... thats so hurt... can you feel it... i just need a shoulder at that moment...

luckily gigi was at home that time...

WHY...???? why is it so hurt....?

and honestly speaking..... i am praying that i wont meet u in the uni from tomorrow onwards.... i just really dun feel like seeing you at this moment.... not because of i am angry or what.... is just because of i need to be selfish, that i got to protect myself...

and i told myself, there is no more tears of mine will be dropping for you again. Never Ever.

But... i would like to say... Thank you for everything... thanks for your care before, at least, your care for me in Taylors...

hope you will meet someone who are really good, independent and meet what you want in the future... swp, Thank you....